Trek-to-KP.

Night 1.

• Early start to our man’s place.
• Chronic hunting for footwear.
• Decision to abandon excess medical paraphernalia.

After nearly a month and a half.

• Getting done with the torture. Well… DSP would do good to bestow upon me a graceful forty. [ 26th Dec - 7th Jan ]
• I did something pretty wack on Dec 22nd.
• Preceded by my niece’s birthday too. She turned one! (Dec 21st)
• In-turn, Preceded by an astro trip to H’Halli [ Dec 17th, was it? ]
• Working all through the period. That’s a bit of a first. Atleast, I started with the cramming early enough to fit all the priorities in. I manage to flatter myself with my time-management skills. Only that my sleep schedules complain.
• BTW, Did I mention about the Hampi trip on the 8th of Dec? My Event-Management skills deserve some flattery too. I’d have devoured any that came my way. Really, it indeed was a huge sigh of relief that all the people managed it into the bus and out of it.
• This stupid fuck (intentional obscurity) has fiddled away with the finances. ‘least he could ‘ve told me about it. Well.. understandable, but nonetheless..very lame and unethical.
• This stupid fuck (more intentional obscurity) created a semi-furore by putting a mail to a group that he shouldn’t have. I sometimes wonder if he’s perspicaciously cunning or plain retarded. Anyway, I guess we did calm the equation down
• These stupid fucks really fiddled around with my Bombay-visit schedule. Screwed my happiness for a while. Still owe me 20k too. Rather disappointed that I could ‘ve done away with a more constructive assignment (quite a bit of remuneration too, for that matter) had they been clear about.
• Doing OS, Philanthropic work for a while.
• This guy’s work never ceases to get over. It’s been on since last March! Honestly getting unproductive and annoying at times.. But then I love him far too much to give haath.
• Chronic Kammanahalli-Meetups.
• Elation over Modi-Victory. Flamewars with AR and AC.
• Benazir died. Rendered me honestly gloomy. But wtf? Will on the Party-chairmanship? God, the kid is 19. let him be in peace. Really.. these families do have something about them. I’m just glad that I’m not as accursed.
• The Coorg-KP trip mid-month. Best times in a while, except for the invertebrating weights and this stupid fuck (!) who threw up nearly one full day.
• Twenty Finally. Teen no more.
• New work at hand, by next week.
• Sweet victory at Perth.
• Life’s hectic.

For nobody cares,

1. Trip to Om shanti dhama. Some ethnic vedic gurukula on the outskirts of B’lore, off kanakapura. The amazing waters of Kaveri too. The splash was the best thing about the whole exercise, undoubtedly. The skies weren’t all that bad, The food was par excellence (I managed a healthy appetite. First in a long time). The ride to the place wasn’t particularly great. The Masala dosas at Kanakpura beat it all.
2. The craziness continues. No stopping us, eh?!
3. Work, Lots of it. PG takes half my day off. The rest doesn’t fare all that lightly either. The Cake app is a tougher cookie than I thought it was.
4. Got a day for myself sometime. Set the Bangalore-blog thingy up. I don’t see it making great progress, But a decent experiment all the same.
5. Can’t wait for the Hampi trip.
6. Learning a lot of new stuff, Much in the J2EE, EJB scheme of things.
7. Doing completely wack things on Jobless sundays.
8. Pondering preposterous ideas on the career front.

Umm.

• Trek to Sathodi Waterfall, Karwar. Err.. make that, “Trip to Sathodi”. We din’t get to trek much. No big deal about the whole excercise. Except that it was the much needed weekend getaway. Kalinadi backwaters and the huge lagoon it formed rawked. Pretty scintillating sight.. especially when you ‘re wack enough to go there amidst torrential rain. The waterfall itself, sucked. It was dirty brown, muddy watter that seemed to be a la-Vrishabhavati-Puddle. Oh well.
• One behemothic project. Painful. Who says  porting SQL around is easy?. Campaign for abstraction layers please, everywhere around, for all Web Apps around. Oh BTW, that isn’t even the hardest part. People and crappy CMSes. aarghh!
• Work on improvising ERP/CRM capabilities of this seemingly robust CakePHP app a friend of mine has come up with. Pretty interesting.
• Checking out vTiger. In the context mentioned above. Forks Forks Forks. Some turn out nice.
• Mandatory everyday-Drupal work. Many sites.
• New found craziness. Investing close to 30 hours on it the last couple of weeks. Pretty wack, even by my standards.
• Getting abused around. Even had a racial slur. Never refuse that advance payment.
• Dying urge to get away from it all.
• The usual depression: One much too similar to the post-2005-June era has crept back in. The defeatist attitude, The loathsome lethargy, The fatalistic take on things .. It’s all back to haunt me.
• The career crisis rages on. I’ve got ideas more preposterous than ever before.
• The impotence to excel manifests in it all. God, what’s gone haywire with me?
• On a brighter note, Comet 17/P Holmes has been amazing. Smudgy, Hazy blob that nobody can miss. Unless you mistake it for a little wisp of cloud.

Where’s life heading to?

24 Months and more of trauma and there’s been only this single consolation all through..Life now forks out. The 4L headache is done or so it seems..God be praised..But all it invokes is a “ayyoo..sumne anyaya”.

Coming to her..She’s been the only lease of life, Apart from the computer thats kept me alive all this long..But not really ideal is she…I’ve other soulmates I can xmlrpc to too…Life evens out..after all.

Life takes a turnaround.

It was long overdue.. Would’ve been great had it only come a couple of years earlier.
The new found happiness does not last too long.. Far from complacence, it’s plain disappointment and ridicule at my own audacity to do something as preposterous as I have..Nonetheless, It’s a path I’ve decided to trod on.. Will take on it no matter what.. Folks at my old abode may not be as cooperative as I’d like them to…but we’ll see what happens.

Been a fiery busy 2 years..learning new things, more self delusions, greed, resentment in love life, new hopes et al.. Nonetheless, B’lore south feels so good

The time hath come.

Your Drafts: Randomiz0red Sunday Outing., 150 Years in memory., aavaraNa - The revealation.

The last two are the ones that never took off. The first one’s about the Ramnagara trip. Try finding the photographs at my flickr. Not much about them, except for the butterfly or perhaps even the rooster.

Anyway… the big wedding’s finally over, life draws back to a grinding halt after an ever so strenuous phase of over rev-ing. And the decision is still pending..The random 374*10^3 number’s always haunting me… It all seems to zero in whether I’m going to make a mere mediocrity of myself or actually something worthwhile. Opt 1 thats got 1.57*10^4 on it seems the sanest way out, somehow… mediocrity again.. I’m probably not destined for anything better.

Matter of ability ? Perhaps.. My lethargy, lack of dedication and commitment, confidence, work ethic is the root cause. Back again on the usual contempt and complacent whine..’I'm destined for no better’..Ingenuity, Decadence are just my virtues, traits. Anti Depressants please.. whatitsname.. ecsitalopram ?